Momentum

JO;

Take another look at the post you just wrote. As you read it, notice how it speeds up in the second to last paragraph, right after you went through the principles. The speed change is happening because you are right on your oscillation point. This IS the point you want to validate right now. This oscillation is where you are working on your balance at. There is nothing terrible, it's just a point or way of being in the moment that stands for a more positive value.

This more positive value has a more positive charge. This charge is part of the CURRENT Moment. You need to practice being okay in that charge and your post shows you are handling it. Now, this is a very important thing! Everyone has to learn to manage the change in current or they will ground out the charge in negativity. It can feel good and sometimes it can feel uncertain. There is nothing to fear if you are willing to dwell in between the rights and wrongs. It is like balancing on a bicycle's two wheels, feet off the ground. When you get comfortable doing that, you can begin to ride and ride and ride.

You will begin to ride better too. You will want to ride through the neighborhood, visiting your friends and passing by trouble spots. You will want to feel the air and feel the road beneath you. You will lean left and right to turn, you will accelerate and brake, and at times even get off the bike.

This is how we engage the higher Self and you are opening to that. Do not be too concerned about the rights and wrongs. Just love the truth. Read your post and see how you were speeding up. It’s just the building of momentum and some people get very nervous with that. I have seen people run from the actual moments that empower them the most, simply because they do not understand the nature of that sensation. I have seen people run from love because they don’t understand those feelings.

Remember what we are here to do and practice. I remember when I first taught my son how to ride a bike. The first thing I did was teach him to fall. First to the right, then to the left. Then I had him pedal once and fall right, then pedal once and fall left. Then pedal twice and fall right and pedal twice and fall left. After reaching four pedals, he says, “Dad, I don’t want to fall so much now, can I pedal ten times?” I said, “Sure” and he went about riding saying he still wasn’t quite ready to fall yet.

sensei

September 18, 2009 at 8:27 | sensei

Sensei...

i can clearly see that increase in momentum you point out... i felt it when i wrote it, and i feel it now... and it also occurs to me how sometimes it really can be hard to balance in that... i didn't quite understand that at first when i read that, and then i got up from the chair to go do something else just now, and all of a sudden a lightning bolt hit me... a little over two weeks ago i painted a colorful little painting of Eve... and i put the words on the painting that said "Look for Wonder in Everything"... noting and highlighting the letters and word EVE in everything and the ONE in wonder by painting them in gold paint... after the completion of that painting and still while riding that lovely and joyful forward momentum came what i called "the fall", and even wrote about it as "the fall" and metaphorically related that to the change of season... ... i think this is a perfect example of what you are saying about grounding out the charge into negativity!!... i fell deeply into invalidation, even became critical of the very little painting that had brought me so much joy those couple of weeks earlier...

and even now the momentum feels even faster than it did before... right now it feels much like the way you feel when you are a child who is very excited to tell something they have discovered and they are talking so fast they become breathless, finding they can't quite keep up to express as fast as the discovery is happening to them in that moment, and maybe don't even say it quite the way they want to say it, but the other person hearing them totally gets what it is they are saying without them having the exact right words to express it, and even helps them to express it even better because they soooo get what is behind what is actually being said... sometimes that energy reaches such an intensity the child will start jumping up and down or flailing their arms in their excitement... it feels just like that... energy buzzing all through, like a very sudden clearing through of cobwebs that have served as bindings, and to be able to see more light shining through...

September 18, 2009 at 9:42 | JO

 

Yes, that is the Current running through the moment as the person gets caught in the momentum of excitement. This current is somewhere in every moment and if you center on it, you will stabilize better with it. If you are a little off balance, it can throw you. Some get thrown into depression and some into mania. Some oscillate into both. The goal is to center on a love of truth and the truth of love. It may be a hard truth to balance with or even a hard love, but if it is truer and more loving, work to handle it. If it is less truthful and loving, then adjust to what is better balanced.

The energy is also known as kundalini and this energy is present when we balance ourselves to the spiritual Truths and Loves. Some people try to force the energy on themselves without opening to the Truths and Loves it represents. This is not recommended as it creates an energy for which there is no assignable value. The best practices involve opening to Truth and Love in meaningful ways that coincide with the depth of being you want to be about. This gives the energy an assignment and it will move to empower you inwardly. If you open the energy channels and hold back to the depths of Truth and Love it represents, you will shutter and it can cause fear and anxiety, or elation that cannot be appreciated in your way of living. But if you honor the Truth and Love that is more True and Loving, it will fill you, fulfilling your inner being because you are living more authentically in line with the inner Self.

sensei

September 18, 2009 at 10:42 | sensei

The best practices involve opening to Truth and Love in meaningful ways that coincide with the depth of being you want to be about. This gives the energy an assignment and it will move to empower you inwardly. If you open the energy channels and hold back to the depths of Truth and Love it represents, you will shutter and it can cause fear and anxiety, or elation that cannot be appreciated in your way of living.

yes... in fact, a very striking example of this happened just as i hit the send button on my last post... as i was buzzing a bit with that energy and feeling quite wound up with it, i did start to feel a bit lost in it... no sooner did i hit the publish button on the post than an opportunity knocked on my door out of the blue in the form of a note passed on to me from someone... it even seemed like what i would call a temptation... a temptation inside myself to ground back down into self doubt and fear and insecurity... the timing was really amazing, actually... it couldn't have been planned better ... like Eve considering the apple is exactly what i felt like... i could clearly see the way to turn and go back into the fall again... but the difference this time was this conversation here this morning, which such prompt and helpful responses, as well as input from another helpful source, and what occurred was a narrowing of the gap of time between the opportunity to turn, and my own awareness of the turn in the moment in which it was happening... where i might habitually make the choice to turn toward grounding into self negativity (and perhaps realizing it much later, sometimes weeks later), at least this time (with some help) i was able to catch the slippage in the moment and make the turn back around again toward the assignment i want to be more about... not helpless or invalid at all!

it is clear that continued practice (and assistance) brings greater ease of recognition inside the moments themselves in "real time" instead of always having to look back and have an "aha" revelation about past, and therefore present, ways of turning...

September 18, 2009 at 11:32 | JO

Sensei and JO,

There is a bit of a trialogue going on now, and I find its dynamic very interesting and intriguing. Fun, in fact. But also serious.

I put the many laughs in my brief message because that’s exactly what happened when I read sensei’s response. It was just so delicious that he had taken a word I’d used without too much forethought and used it in the moment to speak to you, JO, in such a beautiful way. But I could also draw messages from it for me.

I think I spotted on second reading of your response to JO, sensei, that your weren’t actually saying that I had used an incorrect word; but a shift of accent in the word “invalid” opened up another dimension to show that JO’s truth was simultaneously invalid insofar as it didn’t serve her well.

It was just so funny seeing how you picked up on “invalid” and ran with the ball in such an apposite way. I could see how you were respecting what I’d said, and I was actually deeply honored by that fact. And although I’m a bit allergic to that word “master”, I couldn’t help but admire the mastery in your response to JO. I felt grateful that you demonstrated that. If one has a teacher, one wants him to be a master of his field. And in that sense, I am very happy to think of you as a master. It’s just that I’ve given up for Lent the idea of a teacher standing in lieu of God...

You speak of right and wrong, sensei. These are concepts I have probably been avoiding. In truth, I don’t know the rights and wrongs of my three phases. I might be proceeding wrongly at this present stage of my journey. But certainly, I feel happier, am loving it, am going with the flow of what I’m loving. And as for earlier phases, I have both loved and hated during them. I can usually come to terms, after the fact, with the mistakes I have discovered. They may embarrass or make me laugh, and although I may not always love the stumblings and the frustrating periods of stasis in the flatlands, at the macro level, I think I can fairly state that I love the search for Truth. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t have kept going for so long. I can’t not keep going, can’t give up. It’s so fascinating, for one thing.

Have I ever chosen left knowing I should go right? That’s an interesting question. Sure, I’ve occasionally been unable to resist the temptation to backslide in a particular moment. But at the macro level, I’m not aware of having consciously done that. I’ve always at least tried to go with what I think I should even when I’ve hated doing it. But whether or not I thought it right, that says nothing about whether or not I was actually right. Right and Wrong is not something I can identify with 100% confidence.

And since that is the case, I can only go with what my internal detector is telling me. I can only be true to that. One has to be true to one’s Self at one’s current point of dwell. It’s a chilling thought, but yes, we might affirm a wrong step and feel happier doing that. I might be doing that in this new phase: who can say?

It gives me indescribable joy to read:

As we study together here, let's remember that becoming aware in the rights and wrongs of anything and everything is our path home. And let's Love home more than our rights and wrongs.

That’s exactly it. That’s exactly the point I’m at. Loving home more than Rights and Wrongs. Whether or not that is Right or Wrong, I’m consciously choosing to do what I’m loving. God gave us the capacity to love, and if we live out that love, surely there must be some kind of rightness (small “r”) in doing that. It certainly feels right, more so than does concern for Right and Wrong. Living out one’s love, being true to one’s internal detector, has not yet, so far as I’ve been able to discern, caused anyone, including myself, any harm. In fact, it seems to have done the opposite when I’ve managed it.

There seems to me to be a kind of arrogance in seeking to be Right. Right and Wrong may be such very human concepts, generated by the Fall, and may be beside the point in a universe where the aim is to learn to Love, to be Love. When you love, you do what you have to do, what must be done. That could be judged Right or Wrong, but judgement arises in the first place from the perception that there is Right and Wrong. It could be more apposite to say that sometimes we do what must be done, and sometimes we don’t. We should always try to do what we must and avoid doing anything else, but shouldn’t dwell on our mistakes and shortcomings. Doing that is what instantiates a feeling of being Wrong, which is beside the point and may inhibit our trying to get back on track.

Which isn’t to say that we don’t make mistakes, and that we shouldn’t feel a certain amount of repentance, but dwelling in that for too long can become a bit of a vice, and we can come to love it more than what we should be loving. And sensei, you give a good example of that in the person who was attached to negativity about love, so much so that s/he couldn’t see Love when it stared him/her in the face. Like the old song I used to sing in the boy scouts said: “Nobody loves me/ Everybody hates me/ Think I’ll eat some worms”. There is such delicious pleasure in beating oneself senseless with pointless guilt. It’s just another form of egoism. But it is real, it has truth. It has its own logic and validity. We have to respect/recognize it, or we won’t be able to overcome it.

This is why the Lord's Love is eternal, forgiving, unconditional, and why his rod and staff comfort. To see the Lord, we must meet the moment where the Lord resides. Let's face our turnings and footwork in that direction and in that way of being in our moments.

Amen to that.

September 18, 2009 at 12:01 | ML

ML...

what a lovely and textured response for so many reasons... i am again struck by the contrast i continue to see in your writings... as i was reading i realized something else about it... W-O-W... your heart continues to open, even in the places where it seems you still close it up a bit... it is so wonderful to see you opening (and more so seeing you loving the opening)... you are writing so beautifully and repeatedly about Love!!!...LOVE!!! ... do you know how awesome that is to see and be a part of?? (not that i haven't always enjoyed the intellectual fun from other types of discussions with lots of quotes and references and data, etc. ;-) )... but this... this is something so exciting!!!!... Love so clearly shining through you that i can't help but feel pulled into your elation along with you... it reminds me of "where two or more are gathered in my name there i will be also..."

somewhere along the way while immersed so much in strivings and studies and religions and catechisms there became this notion so easy to adopt that one was only really being spiritual if they were feeling miserable... guilty, judged, condemned, crying out in agony, etc... so ingrained this becomes that to actually experience the elation of Love can also mean having to face the apple's temptation of guilt (at least for me)... to soothe the guilt i may turn toward the misery instead... after all, JO... Jesus is hanging on that cross right in front of you... HANGING there for YOUR sins... how can you possibly be so happy?????...

can i say i consciously have chosen to do that at times?... yes, i can say that... the reason i can say that is once the awareness occurs, even if there is a time gap in between, if i do not make the turn right there when the awareness occurs, i have to take responsibility and see i am choosing to stay turned in the direction i say i don't want to be more about... there may be reasons i am doing that in the moment that i can argue are really true reasons (and they are true reasons in that moment, but they aren't right reasons)... so inside of awareness, i can't deny i'm making a conscious choice to stay turned away from what i want...

the words right and wrong... i wonder if those words too, like the word sin, really just need a better, more right frame of reference than we are accustomed to seeing... not words to beat ourselves with but tools of awareness... becoming more aware inside the rights and the wrongs ...what's right is making the turn that brings us closer to Home... where we love to be...

September 18, 2009 at 17:07 | JO

JO,

I like the connection you made with “where two or more are gathered...”; and if it’s not becoming too intellectual again going into knowings, it could also relate to morphic resonance. We could be attuned to the same thing, and Sheldrake does say that certain phenomena of resonance, such as for example telepathy, work best where there is a close relationship – between friends or family, even between people and their pets.

I’m not suggesting telepathy is involved as that’s generally understood, because we are obviously openly communicating using an orthodox channel. But the Greek-originated word “telepathy” does mean “being affected at a distance”, and in strict terms, that could be what is happening. And, if you can resonate to my current focus on love, that means that it’s something you also Know even if now and again you turn away from sources of it in your own life, as I have so often done myself – you know this because in the past I have frequently mentioned it to you here and elsewhere.

So that’s another kind of common bond. However, when I’ve resonated with you on that, it’s not to become drawn into negativity myself. It’s more to become drawn into a complementary wavelength, as it were, which is one of empathising with your situation and wanting to help. But I’ve never really been able to find the right way.

I said earlier that I thought you already knew how to turn towards something, that that wasn’t a value you need develop. I envisaged some other value being indicated, but as I see it, sensei is saying that, whilst you don’t need to develop the value, you do need to learn where, when and how to exercise it. I suspect this would involve dedicated practice in your moments, focusing attention on what it is you are turning towards. If it’s something negative, then you could instead turn towards something positive.

And what might that positive be, I wonder, that our heroine will focus on? What will be her “Dulcinea”? Well, Don Juan focused on love, didn’t he? If that elates you merely in resonance with someone else’s experiencing of it, how much more will it make you positive in your own right? The main thing I can see that stands in the way of your resonating with your own already existing Knowing of Love is the invalid’s (as sensei used the word) tendency to turn in the direction that incapacitates her.

As far as I can see, this is just a habit you have learnt. And one way of breaking a habit is through conscious practice.

What would a JO be like who had broken this habit? What marvelous things would she have to invent - and share, for her own benefit as well as others? I have in fact sometimes seen her in operation, as in your last posting. She already exists when she lets herself do so.

September 18, 2009 at 23:31 | ML